motherhood

Not All Who Wander Are Lost

September 2, 2015

In my imagination lives an image of a pilot, sitting in a cockpit, seeing an approaching storm. Dark clouds have been on my horizon and I find myself plunging into heavy gray. As any good pilot would, I attempt to steer toward the sun and make plans to go to the zoo with friends. The […]

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A Kitchen Spoon

August 26, 2015

I hear his voice coming from the kitchen. “Pease. Helpa, helpa.” I consider that maybe teaching him these sweet words, convincing words, may be backfiring. Reluctantly I leave my warm cup of coffee next to my cozy spot on the couch and round the corner into the kitchen. Grayson’s big blue eyes look up at me. […]

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Sweet Sleep, A Poem

August 19, 2015

Forehead pressed to cheek Tiny nails pinch my neck I sing of summer. Feet dig, body rolls Warm breath settles slowly We stand, sway, rock, Eyelids flutter shut A button starts the sound of heartbeats in the night I squeeze and kiss you Lower you carefully down You sleep as I slip away […]

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Gentle Reminders

August 12, 2015

What am I going to do for dinner? How much sugar is in raisins? Is it too much sugar given how many of them Grayson eats? Swim is tomorrow. Are our suits clean? Are they even out of the car from last week? I wonder if raisins are high in iron. Grayson needs iron. I pull […]

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{dear grayson} you are 7 months old

July 16, 2014

Dear baby boy, You are officially mobile. You’ve got your army crawl down, sometimes you even pop up to your knees. To my surprise, this milestone has increased your frustration. You are so close to being able to roam free, you can taste it. You can sit-up like a pro, but getting from crawling to […]

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25/52

June 23, 2014

“A portrait of my baby boy, once a week, every week, in 2014.” June 17, 2014: When I went to the pediatrician for Grayson’s six month appointment the doctor told me it was time to lower the mattress in Grayson’s crib. My reaction to this news caught me off guard. I didn’t want to lower the mattress. I […]

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{dear grayson} you are 6 months old

June 19, 2014

Dear baby Grayson, You are growing up so fast, right in front of my eyes. For the first time I have had flashes of what you will look like as you get older. I am so excited for our conversations, adventures, and the stories we will tell each other. But each moment of joyful anticipation […]

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{dear grayson} you are 5 months old

May 7, 2014

Dear baby boy, Smiles and laughter have filled this month. I love it. You started the month rolling from your back to your tummy. Now you flip back and forth and shuffle along the floor. You are so ticklish, your knees and your neck and your belly. You had your first full fledged conversation with […]

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a walk in the rain

April 2, 2014

It stormed on Monday, thunder and lightning stormed. I like the rain, like how fresh and clean the world feels while being drenched. I like the sound against the windows. I like stepping through puddles in galoshes. This rain arrived at the perfect time. It is hard to believe I have been a mom for […]